i always feel like im in it when we are striking. but when grappling with some very advanced people, it always seems like it is hopeless. striking to me is different in grappling in that sence. the more skilled grappler usually wins, but in striking, there are other variable besides technique. like speed, the power behind your strikes, your ability to take a punch. muy thai is very brutal, i always get injuries of all sorts from it, but it will get better over time. it is something that you will have to deal with if you want to train.