| | Chris Leben's latest blog (post-Anderson Silva fight)
From UFC.com, Chris Leben's latest blog entry:
July 7, 2006-Washington
Crippler Report 4
Losing sucks. I donít even know how to lose; I havenít had much practice at it. I train so hard Ė itís my whole life Ė itís what I do. I train to win; losing doesnít even enter my mind. I was ready for my fight with Anderson Silva. I knew how dangerous he is; I knew what I needed to do. But I got caught Ė right down the middle. When I replay the fight in my mind, I still see myself blocking that shot and I am on my way to landing a couple of my own. Watching the fight later on TV was harder than actually fighting it. Jeez, 49 seconds!! Months and months of training and it was over in 49 seconds! I know it can happen, Iíve seen it happen to others Ė but not to me!!
As you can imagine, I had a pretty tough time after the fight. I am emotional and I am passionate - those qualities came boiling out of me in the locker room. Thank goodness my crew knows how to handle me. So after we cancelled our dinner plans and chowed down on take-out in the room, I was ready to hit the Circle Bar. Thatís where I watched my fight on TV Ė bad idea. I had to get out of there and get some air. I sat outside on a bench with my buddy, Ed Herman, just pissed. Then Stephan Bonnar walked up and joined us. We were three tough UFC fighters, all with losses to deal with. Sharing a large bottle of Jack helped a lot. We moved our pitty party back to the room for further discussion. No one can empathize with an upset and disappointed fighter better than another fighter who is going through the same thing.
Robert Follis, one of my wise coaches (and Randy Coutureís former coach) pointed out that Randy lost two big fights in a row and they just didnít know what would come next. We all know what happened after that. There are plenty of other examples like this. Who knows what will happen in my future.
Today I am lying by the pool creating my own rehab. I have the support of my girlfriend and closest friends. I have some fun Las Vegas activities planned for the next few days (shooting automatic weapons, riding pit bikes at Alien Motor Sports, a couple of shows and some heavy partying). Next week Iíll get some more ink added to my back and then Iíll get back in the gym, back to training.
Losing a fight sucks but itís not the end of my career. Iím tough and Iím a good fighter who is training to be a better fighter in the long haul. I got caught by one of the best in the world, no shame in that. I predict that Anderson Silva will wear the belt next and Iíll get another shot at him eventually. Iíd love to win the belt from him some day.
Chris The Crippler Leben